Thoughts, Wants, and Small Obsessions

I have this best friend, and she moved. And we maintained our friendship, I mean it changed and we drifted apart a little. But I still continued to be her best friend. She came down every time she could, mostly just during school breaks. We had talked on the phone a lot about how I was the only one to really be there for her while she was so far away. Which meat a lot to her, because she had been going through some problems. She was just really really unhappy, life there was nothing like how she imagined it would be. Eventually she decided she wanted to move back at the end of June. She was down for like a week and she barely spent anytime with me, she was kind of rude, and she just undermined how good of friends we were. Not to mention she has just changed so much, she is super vulgar and just is mean…. I think moving up there has made her bitter, or something of that nature… I’m not sure, it just really makes me sad because our friendship was so easy and wonderful. Now I feel like I’m not what she wants in a friendship. Like I’m not good enough in her eyes to spend time with. What pissed me off the most about it, is her other best friend, that barely talked to her when she was going through her rough period, gets all her attention. I don’t want to sound bitter, bitchy, or otherwise unpleasant but what the hell? I’ve always been there for her and now she treats me like shit… Gah, then it also makes me so sad because I feel like I have lost something that I can’t get back. Our friendship was so, just open about everything. And fun, and just easy. And I feel like people don’t get that very easily. I don’t know, whatever. Sorry for whining anyone who reads this.

Happy Endings

I’m a happy ending person, knowing what happens after the happily ever after never appealed to me because they were happy forever after. And I know that’s what I want for myself, is to be happy. Unfortunately I know that I won’t find a place where I will be happy ever after, because that’s life… On that thought, I’m not sure I would be happy is I was in some crazy land where I could achieve happy ever after. Because everything would be the same and it would all run together… Soo, cliche but I guess you can’t have a rainbow with out rain…. I hate cliches. 

I wish I didn’t live in a town where racism is more common than common sense. It really just isn’t alright….. Freakin hicks.

I want a girlfriend

fedtothewolves:

I want a girl that will cook with me, watch 500 days of summer over and over, not complain when life is boring, communicate, be there for me, never get tired of laying in bed, go on drives for no reason, talk about life, listen to florence and saosin with me, stay up all night with me and sleep all day.

I may have just fallen in love with you….